diving into my latest project. thinking about death valley & what it is to be a woman living a non-traditional life. BADWATER >> read more.
red // dread
experiments in instagram poetry layout.
hope
“Hope” is the thing with feathers -
That perches in the soul -
And sings the tune without the words -
And never stops - at all -
And sweetest - in the Gale - is heard -
And sore must be the storm -
That could abash the little Bird
That kept so many warm -
I’ve heard it in the chillest land -
And on the strangest Sea -
Yet - never - in Extremity,
It asked a crumb - of me.
-emily dickinson, #314
hope, after emily dickinson (2019)
wanting
wanting (2019)
concrete poems.
explorations in
wanting—
“There’s something good about being a failure—it keeps you going.”
what does failure even mean anyway?
journal:
“honestly, I’m not really sure what ‘failure’ even means anymore. what is the definition? is it just being broke, or bored, or whatever else? is it that you tried something & it didn’t work? & if that’s it, then isn’t that basically all life is anyway?
is it that you haven’t amounted to anything? I’m not sure what ‘amounted to’ means either. maybe I just don’t know what anything means.
maybe nothing means anything? maybe it’s all just symbols for nothing & we’ve made up definitions. that’s basically what language is at least.”
mermaids
going through old photos & came across these film shots from the coney island mermaid parade. I’m not certain of the date, but I estimate it’s 2010, if the bp oil spill reference is any indicator. I didn’t attend the parade every year I lived in brooklyn, but I did go several times. always a highlight of my new york summer season.
the coney island mermaid parade began in 1983 as a launching of the summer season. it is now the largest art parade in the united states—attracting thousands of participants & even more spectators from around new york city & the world. nautical themed costumes are encouraged for viewers & required for participants. a range of contests & other festivities surround the event, including the annual crowing of a king neptune & queen mermaid. in 2019, arlo & nora guthrie received the honors.
learn more about the parade on its website.
shot on 35mm film with a vintage nikon fe.
skatepark
an afternoon at the venice beach skatepark. making me dream about buying a skateboard & coasting around hollywood… even though I never had a skateboard as a kid. maybe it’s a kind of nostalgia for a place & time that doesn’t actually exist.
crystals
trying out some tricks I’ve been learning via youtube & instagram. filling up my product photography portfolio on raymarkmedia.com
blue ocean floor
learning the art of taking photographs of people.
see updated portraits in the gallery.
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california dreaming
keeping secrets
I’m the part of the canvas
that’s been painted over—
another image hidden behind.
someone asks:
what would it take to reveal yourself?
& I answer with laughter
like a threaded strand of lies.
a tale of two blooms
things found while strolling the hollywood hills in early summer…
30 days of collage
Recently I decided to do a scrap collage in my journal every day for 30 days. These are the results.
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the park
journal, mt. hollywood summit
if butterflies are symbols of transformation then mt. hollywood must be a place of transformation because it’s always swarming with butterflies up here. they make me nervous.
summit
I forgot
how to wear myself
comfortably draped
a swirl of cloth
tied at the elbows
& knees.
expectation of give—
I never learned
what holding firm is.
three women
digital iphone collages, may 2019
joshua tree
joshua tree national park straddles both the colorado desert & the mojave desert in eastern california. the park was originally declared a national monument in 1936 & re-designated a national park in 1994 after congress passed the ‘california desert protection act’. taking up nearly 800,000 acres, the park itself is slightly larger than the state of rhode island. joshua tree is named for its trademark vegetation, the yucca brevifolia, which is native to the mojave desert.
blooming
I spent the morning a few days ago wandering the California Poppy Reserve, despite almost 35 mile per hour winds! The superbloom happening in Southern California right now, however, was more than worth the chapped lips & wind-whipped hair.
Put together a short video (of very wobbly windy footage) of my explorations. Look for more photos & videos from this gorgeous adventure on my instagram in the coming weeks.
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The Antelope Valley California Poppy Reserve in Lancaster, California is home to the most consistent blooming of the state's flower, the California poppy. The department of California State Parks does not water or stimulate the flowers in any way, instead leaving the blooms in their strictly natural state. It is against state law to remove flowers from the site & veering off the established paths can result in a hefty ticket. The traditional blooming season for California Poppies is mid-February through mid-May.
The so-called "superbloom" of 2019 was caused by an increase in rainfall during the winter months in Southern California. Parking on-site at the reserve, which is currently open 7:00am-7:00pm, is $10 per passenger vehicle, or you can opt to park on the shoulder of the road for free, provided you are at least 100 feet away from the park's entrance.
eyes
tiger’s eye
bringer of bright &
light to shadow places.
level headed like
a picture properly held.
solid enough to build
houses but still a kind
of breeze between trees.
Secret History
One afternoon out of sheer curiosity I decided to google the origin story of Los Angeles’ Griffith Park. At first it was unremarkable, a large tract of land donated to the city by a wealthy resident. But it didn’t take much digging to discover the strange & violent history of LA’s most famous public space. I took that curiosity & created this little short documentary exploring the weird early life of this landmark & the man who made it possible.
You can read the full narration text plus additional information (there was too much weird stuff to fit into just one 3 min video!) in my earlier blog post. & remember: the history of your local haunts is often weirder than you can even imagine.
Ashes
red self portrait (2018) + text from ‘lady lazarus’ by sylvia plath.