journal:
“honestly, I’m not really sure what ‘failure’ even means anymore. what is the definition? is it just being broke, or bored, or whatever else? is it that you tried something & it didn’t work? & if that’s it, then isn’t that basically all life is anyway?
is it that you haven’t amounted to anything? I’m not sure what ‘amounted to’ means either. maybe I just don’t know what anything means.
maybe nothing means anything? maybe it’s all just symbols for nothing & we’ve made up definitions. that’s basically what language is at least.”